Womb Energetics and the Victim/Savior Complex

As a priestess and empath if my deep desire to serve you comes from a place of wanting to save you, I have already robbed you of your innate power (of course I could never rob you of your power but my narrative of your capacities has inadvertently put you in a place of one who needs saving)

If I, in position to hold space for your pain, haven't cleared my own victim stories and the energetics that weave subtly through my womb, I will project onto you (most often times unconsciously and energetically) my own victim narratives placing you in position of one who is in suffering and in need of relief.

This may show up as a display of discomfort with overwhelming emotional states and a rush to comfort, bypass, and an overall mis-attunement to present moment expression and release of e-motion.

The wounding of the 'Savior Pattern' may seemingly be harmless enough. I have a deep desire to help, to serve, and transform the suffering and pain of the world, this is so very righteous and puts me in position of being a "good" human being. However, to put myself in position of saving another than puts another in position of needing to be saved. Not to mention I've also put myself in position of God.

And...this is the mind blower--- if I for a second believe another needs to be saved, then I too am still running programs of needing to be saved...myself.

The Savior upon further exploration is really still the Victim.

For if I truly knew my innate power and ability to rise within myself, to hold my own, and to learn and live and grow despite whatever challenges, pain, and traumas I have lived through. If I have met myself in the depths of my darkest nights, the trenches of my deepest pains and have crawled my way out and back into the light to find a truer, stronger, wiser, more authentically aligned with source, Me. Then I would, through my own embodied knowing, see the world and others through the reflective eyes of my own understanding. Sovereign and not in need of saving but one who may just be in need of holding. That is the .

These energy dynamics can be so subtle too. I perhaps may not even be conscious of the ways in which i’m relating to another, but my womb may act as an energetic vacuum drawing in the the suffering of the world as a means of healing and transforming it through my own being.

What lands up happening is that we take unmanageable energy into our bodies, we can't process all of that energy, and we land up having that energy stuck and stagnant in our wombs.

Our womb energy then becomes muddled with a myriad of emotional states that compound our already undigested wounds and what we have then is the potential for painful menstrual cycles as our womb contracts with the intended release of built up energy, low libido, low energy in general, a felt sense of a block in our creative and/or sensual flow, and the potential for overwhelming emotional highs and lows (especially during menses) as the womb processes and intends to purge all the accumulated energy and emotions that had been taken on the month prior.

So how then do we contend with these subtle relational energetics that may play out unconsciously and may too be accumulating others energies within our own womb?

First, if you resonated with any of the previous sentiments in regards to wanting to fix, save, tend to, rescue, or transform another’s suffering there is a clue.

If you find that in witnessing and/or holding space for another in their emotional release you tend to dissociate, move to relieve them of their suffering, generally become uncomfortable, and/or are unable to truly be present and witness with honor the persons release therein lies another clue.

If you resonate with the above and you also experience any of the previously mentioned womb manifestations there is your final clue.

What I would recommend to start moving into a different energetic relating pattern would be to do regular womb clearings (at least once a month) and to work more intimately with your bleeding time (if you bleed) supporting your womb in her release. I would also recommend stepping away from any space holding capacities for a period of time while you turn inward and come to know intimately the one within who feels to be a victim. Come to know their story, their own beliefs, and their own unprocessed emotions. And seek out forms of healing that may allow for the completion of your own emotional release. I also would highly recommend allowing yourself to be truly witnessed and held. Preferably by someone who has done their own inner work to draw their own sovereign energy boundaries so they can truly show up and support you without them too playing into the dynamic we have so deeply explored. Allowing for yourself to complete the process that has been seeking its way through the other, you now may allow the inner Victim and Savior to move into its highest expression of the Sovereign.